prayer and praise wall

Here at Relentless Church we believe in the power of prayer. We count it an honor to pray with you and on your behalf. This prayer wall is an interactive community so please feel free to share a prayer request, pray for the needs of others, and lastly to see when others have prayed for you.

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Anonymous

I ask for prayer for my 30year old son who is lost spiritually in this negative world he’s facing time in prison he has five children that he works very hard for and love very much. He’s very broken and needs All the prayers he can get. I know god can work miracles and All things through Christ are possible, I thank everyone who’s sends prayers for my dear son god bless…….:”

Received: January 12, 2021

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DeeP

Please for my children that they will be restored to the Father. (salvation) . Moms health.

All our leaders, in the home, in the neighborhoods, in the communities, in the cities, in the states, in the country and in the world. It is a tough time to be a leader, praying for His wisdom knowledge and understanding to be in and all over them.

Received: January 12, 2021

I prayed for this

Prayed for 19 times.

Tara

The Lord told me i was going to marry a pastor. I met the man of God he called me to marry and even though he was and still is a recovering addict, I believed God in his promise. We were married and 3 weeks later pregnant at 40 years old. My 3rd his first child. Needless ti say the man of God that claimed to never want to touch another drug again, has been continuing in his addiction to prescribed drugs, marijuana, nicotine, etc. I have been faithful on my walk with the Lord since 2011. I have dealt with this and fought my own flesh for over 4 years believing God will heal him and lift the veil for him to see his true calling. He has known about his calling since he was 16 years old and yet continues to choose his flesh. Our church has even given him a biblical ultimatum. As to what is stated in Matthew on handling a person who continues in sin.

I am at my breaking point. I dont have the strength anymore to be married to a man who puts his idols and soul ties before the Lord, myself and his child. Im done praying and im done hearing his words that lack action. I have begun to believe that he will never come to healing unless he is completely alone and lost everything for the billionth time

Received: January 12, 2021

I prayed for this

Prayed for 23 times.

Melinda Justo

Covid has entered my household. I am asking for prayers for protection, strength and healing. My father is very high risk and has fallen ill because of this and I ask God to give my father the strength to fight this and heal. In Jesus name. Amen!

Received: January 12, 2021

I prayed for this

Prayed for 23 times.

Anonymous

I’m asking for pray over my son and his classes in school, mainly math. He’s been really struggling since the beginning of the pandemic in March. I’ve been unable to get the additional assistance he needs. The school has no resources they can provide nor outside recommendations for tutoring, etc. He now has to take an additional math class for 4 sessions on top of the daily math class in order to pass to the next grade. Praying that I’m able to find the help he needs soon.

Received: January 12, 2021

I prayed for this

Prayed for 31 times.

Shawn

My mother passed on November 29th 2020 and my father passed on January 3rd 2021! They passed 36 days apart! My heart is very heavy! It’s even hard texting this message! I need strength to carry on their legacy!

Received: January 12, 2021

I prayed for this

Prayed for 19 times.

Robin Ray

Pray that the Lord will give me direction on what He would have me to do and for me to hear and be obedient.

Received: January 12, 2021

I prayed for this

Prayed for 23 times.

Anonymous

Please pray with me that this, my first attempt at a fast, will be successful. That I will be able to come out of this with a deeper understanding of myself and how to be a follower of Christ and a leader for my children. I also want to have a clean heart that feels empathy and compassion for others.

Received: January 12, 2021

I prayed for this

Prayed for 17 times.

Anonymous

I pray for healing over Mark Jackson, asking God to strengthen him where he is weak and in pain. Covering his house from all the troubles in it. Helping him build a stronger relationship with God. Opening his mind, heart, and soul to accept the love of God and believing in his powers for miracles signs and wonders. Amen

Received: January 12, 2021

I prayed for this

Prayed for 20 times.

Millie

Pray for my daughters Jed and Christy for employment.

Pray for my daughter Sha for an easy pregnancy of her son.

Pray for my son Isaiah that he seeks God first and lead his family to church.

Pray for my 5 grandchildren: Dante, Sean, Isaiah, Lysie and Evelina for God’s protection.

Pray for me and my daughter Jed for we have covid.

Received: January 12, 2021

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Matthew Woodward

 

My name is Matthew Woodard, I am married to Aleha Woodard and we have a total of 5 children, 4 of which live with us. Right before the shutdown, On February 27, 2020 I lost my job.  I was devastated because they let me go after my supervisor reported me for following the instructions that he gave me. Needless to say I was mad and I didn’t want to have to deal with this situation. I called my wife and told her what happened. When I got home we started talking and rather than getting upset we turned on some praise & worship, went to God in prayer and let it go. I began looking for work but, I stopped on March 9th when my mother-in-law woke up coughing up blood and barely able to walk . We rushed her to the hospital and they admitted her. After about 6 hours my mother-in-law told me that the doctor’s came back and said she had stage 3 lung cancer and she had 5 to 10 years to live. The news tore my house apart. Once she was released we brought her home with oxygen, trying to adjust to this new way of life and then shutdown began. I began praising God that I lost my job because with my mother-in-law’s condition I was there to take her to all of her appointments and help her with anything she needed which wound up being a blessing because, the 5 to 10 years that we thought we going to have with her turned into 4 weeks and she passed away from stage 4 lung cancer on April 6th. The amount pain that my family felt in that moment was insurmountable and it may not be this way for others but, even with all of the pain it was the biggest blessing was to be in quarantine and to be able to grieve in peace. God stayed with us through all of it and comforted us in a way that I can’t even begin explain. When my mother-in-law passed away we picked up some financial expenses that we weren’t prepared for especially since I hadn’t started working because I was caring for her but, God continued to carry us and provide every one of my family’s needs. There were times that we didn’t have food or money for a bill and God would send someone to us that would meet that need without us ever having to ask. This was the first time I had seen God move in my life without me having to ask and I believe it’s because we just stayed in praise & worship no matter what we felt. On April 9th I began working again, it wasn’t the job I wanted but, I couldn’t just sit in the house, I needed to provide for my family. I started making a little more than minimum wage and after 90 days they gave me a $1 raise. Around Labor day I started feeling like it wasn’t working at the job and I was going to start looking again but, I really didn’t want to because I enjoy what I do. A few days later was payday and money was getting tight again. My wife called me at work and said she felt like I was going to start looking for something else and I told her what I was feeling. We said we were going to talk more at home and she said “Ok, let me pay my tithes and then I’ll be on my way”. By the time she got to my job I had been pulled into a meeting with management and they had informed me that I was getting a promotion and my salary is about to almost double, I told my wife and she took off running!!! I know this quarantine has been hell for a lot of people (us included) but, I am so grateful that God is here with all of us providing for us, all we have to do is love on Him and keep your eyes on Him. HE REALLY DOES gives you the peace that surpasses all understanding, HE REALLY DOES supply every need the key is not allowing yourself to be consumed by the cares of this world and seek His face no matter how hard the situation may be.

Scholar with Purpose

Amen Amen and Amen! I too am learning to praise him in all circumstance… its a doozey though isn’t it? But God has seen me through some sketchy times. So I am in agreement with holding fast to your faith (as hard as it is at times) especially in the obedience of the tithe. God does come through in the most specific and specialized ways doesn’t he? I have seen and experienced so many instant turnarounds after I tithed my last dime. I’m sure your mother-in-love is honored in the presence of the Father entering his gates leaving behind a legacy of active faith! Congrats on your promotion, God bless your family, stay the course, and God Bless.

Jazmine Taylor

God has been speaking “Forgiveness” to me this week. I immediately knew it was for my Dad. This is going to be harder than I thought, so please keep me lifted as I figure out exactly what that looks like for our relationship.

Rae Corbo

I pray to be reunited with my children before the year is out!!!! Please stand in prayer with me.

Culeatha Eaton

I’m thankful because of who He Is. He is both Lord and Savior; and He Loves me.
His unfailing Love gives me strength to love myself, knowing that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. His unfailing Love causes me to not only love my neighbor as myself but to also love the Brethren; my sisters and brothers in Christ. His unfailing Love causes me to love those that I know do not love me.
I am ever grateful and thankful for His Love ❤

Veronica

I’m thankful for our home. God has blessed my children and I with a beautiful 5 bedroom home… I had been praying, looking for 5 years.. I would come close then it would be something with my credit or another… I almost gave up but God open doors for us and things started working in our favor … Were truly blessed because I had Covid in July and I was still able to push my paperwork for our home without seeing the loan officer and we closed in September… God will do it, on his time… #Goddidit!!!

Veronica B.

Eli

I left Miami, FL in 2018, with my wife and 2 year old son at the time in hopes of starting over after an attempt to go into vocational ministry failed. I had quit my full time job too soon which left my family and I in a financial rut. While living in Charleston, SC God started to answer prayers that I have been praying for more than 13 years. In 2019 I finally became a U.S. Citizen, graduated with my B.A. in Pastoral Ministry and went on my first international Mission trip to rural parts of Matlapa, Mexico for a week, fully funded through raising funds (so many praise reports in this trip itself) Glory to God. And my wife and I finally bought our first home with less than $3,000 to close the loan. We were shocked. As we tried in Miami to buy a home, but it always required $15,000 or more to close a loan. What I just wrote is praise report worthy itself. But in this year (2020) was supposed to be even a bigger year for my family and I. You can probably guess with the way 2020 went, it wasn’t big for us. I secured a full time ministry job position working in family ministry at a local church in Miami. As you can imagine my wife and I were excited to go back to Miami as we missed our close friends and other things. Unfortunately 6 months into the job position I was fired. I had some disagreements with my direct ministry leader with the way she rudely communicated with people and eventually to me. I had an anxiety attack ( as I also was dealing with 2020 things that were happening) and blew up on my Ministry leader while I tried to communicate to her I didn’t appreciate the way she was speaking to me. While it was great I stood up for myself I communicated in an unprofessional way. And though I apologized and owned up to my actions, it was a veteran employee (who had it out for me) against the newbie and the church fired me the next day. I was crushed, embarrassed, lost even. For me getting a full time job in ministry meant a lot to me. You see when I was single and a young(er) adult I had dreams of going to seminary school and work in vocational ministry, just wanting to be knee-deep in ministry work. My dreams were crushed back then as I was undocumented and couldn’t afford to pay three times the international tuition rate to go to college. And when I tried to “work” at several churches, they either took advantage of me by making me work without pay or when I inquired about employment they found out that I was undocumented and quickly cut ties with me. I’ve seen some pretty ugly sides of a lot of different churches. I’m surprised I still even want to work in one still. I guess it is because of my strong desire and pull to talk about God and connect people to the loving God that has been taking care of me all these years. Whenever I felt like giving up, God would tell me “I have brought you this far.”. Which was a reminder to me that it was God along, this whole time, my reason of living. I’ve seen him come through many times in a mighty big way. And I know he will come through again. Still even now he provides. Because my bills are getting paid my family and I are healthy, we have a roof over our heads and food in the fridge. Even I have tried to not want to work in ministry, the desire always comes back. I know God will come through. He is faithful.

A. Brown

Last year I was diagnose with non-smoker lung cancer I’m taking chemotherapy a CT scan is required several months down the road from the chemotherapy. When I went to see my MD. it was told to me that there was another mass found on my lung. Was unable to say if it was cancer or not so I was put on antibiotics to treat it as though it was pneumonia. Redid the CT scan and was told that the mess was gone and that the chemo is removing the cancer mess!!!!! Praise the Lord! God is good I confess his promise words and take communion everyday. The enemy is defeated Ezekiel 37:14 I will put my spirit in you and you will live!!!!! Ps 91:16 I shall live and not die with long life will I satisfy you and shew you my salvations!!! Amen to God I give the glory!!!

Scholar with Purpose

21 Day Fast: Day 1 Give Thanks in all things
So today is the first day of the 21 day fast. I figure I can start with marking the daily thanks on the praise wall each day. So today January 11, 2021 I am thankful that God has ordered my steps. It don’t much look like it, it don’t much feel like it, and I sho don’t much like the look and feel of it…but – nevertheless, here I am like the old spiritual the church mothers would sing (when the saints were alive in the church) “I’m still here, I’m still here I made it through, so can you…” I thank Him that He is Eheyeh Asher Eheyeh [I am that I am] that He spoke my end before my beginning, that He has planned for me a future and hope, that He spoke his Ruach into me and then proclaimed that nothing returns unto Him void. Therefore I MUST accomplish his work in me. I thank Him today that though I feel like I am wandering aimlessly in a wilderness space at this moment, that I feel abandoned and left as food for the ravens, He knows my exact coordinates and has sent those ravens to provide me meat in this very wilderness. Though people I put my trust in use this trial for evil, God is using it for my good. He is forcing me to chew on and digest his word to feed my faith for there is no milk or bread in this time that season has passed. I thank Him that ALL things come together for my Good because I love Him and am called according to HIS purpose. I thank Him that he is using this time to hide me while he renews a right spirit in me for the work He has called me to accomplish that very purpose, and people it must be a doozy of a purpose cause this [fill in the blank] is a mother! But I digress. More than anything on this first day of the 21day fast on the 11the day of this New and (to the naked eye) not so improved season, I thank Him that he made himself known to me from a very small child in ways that I could never explain. Ways visible to my grandmother and mother my Lois and Eunice, the hands of women who he called into the earth to raise up a generation to know him. So – though I am being tried in ways that are changing not only my posture and my stand, but my wait (ugh…the waiting y’all) – I am Blessed that this season has brought me into remembrance of all these things. I am thank Him that when He as tried me I will be pure gold, a double edged sword. And though Jezebel’s threat seems to loom over my head, each day, each “this time tomorrow” I’m still here, being kept by His love, and since He has already spoken my end from my beginning I will not return to him void.

Kelli Clanton

My mother and I have both been healed of Covid, her pneumonia has subsided and she is doing much better, praise God for His healing power, and thank you to everyone who prayed for her

Chelita Little

Praise God for good health to my family and other loved ones.

Anonymous

Recently my father was experiencing severe symptoms and tested positive for covid19, like a lot of people he was told to go home and take vitamins. Approximately four days later his breathing became extremely labored. We took him to the hospital and he was admitted and was diagnosed with covid pneumonia. He was put on oxygen and was treated for seven days in the critical care unit in the hospital. He is now at home continuing his recovery. I thank God for all of you and all of your prayers. My dad does get short of breath when doing normal daily tasks but with Gods grace he is getting stronger every day. I am truly grateful.

Sonya Gray

Today after years of having to pay hospital and medical bills on the second day of our fast I got a call saying you will never pay a bill for medication, doctors or hospital ever again and they even giving me an allowance to use to get any over-the-counter medication or supplies I need for my health. Praise be to God on the 2nd day of the 21 day fast. I am blessed because I am obedient to God and not man and God is my best friend. When you obedient to the Lord and his word you will be blessed.

Scholar with Purpose

YEAAAAHHHHH! Look at Jesus, what a great praise report. Won’t he do it!

Scholar with Purpose

21 Day Fast: Day 2 Give thanks in all things

So today is the second day of the 21 day fast and I am continuing my praise wall tags of thanks. Today I thank God for a new revelation. As I said yesterday, I have been going through it. How ever this time in the wine press – if you will – has turned out to be like a continuous prayer closet on steroids. Oh the soul ties and alters to high places God will show you when your alone with only a soccer ball to talk to. We all have them and I’ve learned they are not the obvious ones like the regular sins we all know and dog each other out for. Not your house hold sins like gossip, jealousy, thieving, or the more popular themes such as porn or just plain mean spiritedness. No I’m talking bout the hidden ones that even you don’t recognize are hemming you in until God searches you and then shows you what he sees. For me they have been the high alter of fear and victimization. Allowing others to Gaslight me into backing down from what God has resourced me to do. You know King Saul bowed to that alter too and it didn’t fare well for him in the end. I hadn’t realized how easy it was for the Enemy to use people in high places and even people in not so high places to use you as a sacrifice unto themselves. What I mean by that is this, when people hold you close enough to monitor what you bring to the table but not close enough for you to see their hand, that’s a sign – your a shoe in for a scapegoat. I didn’t think well enough of myself to protect my assets, those being my gifts, the ones God given and my talents, the ones God expects me to invest and develop. People even religious church folk who may have some kinda spirit filled hearts but not Holy spirit filled hearts do recognize a good gift and talent when they see it. And if your not mature enough to know your own hand, you can very easily accidently on purpose trade it for red stew or like the third servant, burry it in fear of failure, or like King Saul – listen to the reason of the crowed over faith and obedience to Jehovah. Now I’m not saying God will tell you go out and smite some people all their Donkey’s and a King, but I am telling you that when he tells you no, but to keep from looking crae crae to groaning and moaning constituents you say yes, well that’s giving yourself as sacrifice. Its that simple and that hard at the same time. Oh but how wonderful it is to have a Jesus that intercedes for me like Moses did for Israel. To have an unrelenting God who hides me away until I am in the right mind to stand even in the face of “experts” and hold my own. Until I am strong enough in Him to handle the task He has equipped me for. I had no idea how NOT ready I was for such a supernatural untraveled path He has ordered my steps to tread until this season. So the first part of my revelation came in a dream. I won’t go into it but that I was assigned to 2nd Timothy. I have combed that scripture so thoroughly over the years since that I know it by heart. Though I must admit at first I argued for why and what exactly was I to look for? It didn’t make sense. Has anyone out there ever argued with a messenger of God in a dream? I wouldn’t recommend it. Shows you the posture of my spirit though. But I digress. Needless to say, that scripture had become my mantra I mean I could attribute any given circumstance I encountered to something in it down to my walk in a PhD program in Education, (a hot mess but that’s for the prayer wall), cause lord knows I no more wanted to teach than Timothy wanted to preach in Corinth and its has been just as contentious, but again I digress. My long drawn out three trips down a rabbit hole point here people is this – New revelation came to me today. As God has used this time to unravel the rope binding me to these alters it hit me “God has not given me the spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind” DAH – ya think that would have been my first clue, but I really hadn’t understood high places in the context that God has shown me in this season. I hadn’t realized I had submit so much of myself to the alters of fear of other people who really – just wanted my crown. Do not let people gaslight you into thinking your diamonds are cut glass. If they are willing to cut your head of for it, you hold more value than you realize. So I am grateful and thankful for my time in the press God is a GREAT God and even though I felt and still feel invisible and driven out. He sees me and knows my end from my beginning. And baby when I emerge from this wine press… LOOK OUT!

Scholar with Purpose

21 Day Fast: Day 3 Give thanks in all things

We are ending Day three of the 21 day fast and I am tagging the wall thrice more with my thanks. Did I use that right? thrice? whatever you get my drift this is my third tag. Anywho today I am thankful for insight. As I vaguely indicated in my post yesterday, I am a dreamer. That is in my dreams I often have encounters with God. I have had this since I was a small small child. My grandmother would usually be the one to walk me through them and help me understand them, thought most times she would just say – “keep that in your heart and in the back of your mind until God explains it to you when your older”. She would always say, which I now know is a quote from scripture “He tells you these things so that when they come to pass you will know it was from Him” John 16:4. So all that said, for a time I stopped dreaming. I was worried that I lost my connection to God and then of course came the wilderness that I am currently in. However, much like my 2 Timothy assignment that came to me a short time ago, God has put me in remembrance of dreams I had as a small child and a couple I had in high school. Its almost as if God is answering my “why?” in old visions that made no sense at the time, but make perfect sense now. I find myself in prayer answering my own questions. I’ll lift something up and he will remind me or bring to my mind an old dream or vision and I respond with “Ohhhh that’s what that was about” or Ohhh that’s what that was, or that’s what that meant. Though more often lately Its been more like “REALLY God? You PLANNED for this to happen? But then when I think about it, if He did give me understanding when I dreamed them at age 5 or 10 or 15 would I have known what to do with that insight then? What was I gonna do? Not grow up? What was I gonna say “What Lord? Oh you can forget that Lord – take me now cause I’m not walkin that walk!” I don’t think so. So now I think my grandmother had more insight than she was letting on she just didn’t tell me what she knew. She did however teach me how and where to seek counsel in the Word. I like Joseph though had to learn and am still learning NOT to share my dreams with everyone. I have been burned, spurned and everything in between. But in this season God is giving me insight into people, characters, hearts, and affects of mistakes I’ve made. He is also showing me how long he has walked with me and how present he is in my now. So today – I am giving thanks for insight and all that it brings to my current faith walk. Even though all I see in front of me is a nearing cliff, which unfortunately was also a dream I had, I know I land on my feet without a scratch – though from what I remember the fall was terrifying, but that’s not the point. I land on my feet completely whole and God makes another way for me. This brings a whole knew meaning for “order my steps lord” Maybe I should have thought about that before I asked him to. His steps mean His way. Over the river and through the woods way, through the wilderness way, or over a cliff way, we just have to trust him with our walk. He has a destination set fourth and he has timed every step trust me…I’ve seen a few ahead of their time I just didn’t know what I was looking at. So Thank you Lord for your insight. I’m not ready for the fall, but I’m am prepared for it.

Scholar with Purpose

21 Day Fast: Day 4 Give thanks in all things

Well Saints, Its day four of my relentless tags of praise. Today I am thankful for a fresh outlook. As I have shared in my thrice post – yes that means three I looked it up – I have been wandering aimlessly in the wilderness feeling lost and discombobulated. God has thus far put me in remembrance that he has ordered my steps and even though he refuses to give me a clear map of where I am and where I am going (frustrating), he has already planned my end from my beginning. So I have been praying for what to do while I wander. And answer did he with a laundry list of to do’s, some of which seem REALLY far fetched, but who am I to argue, as I’ve shared in my second post I’ve tried that before and it wasn’t pretty. So as I embarked on my to do’s one of which was to organize all my writing and projects into a website I realized how much I had accomplished over the past few years. I have been so engulfed in self-defeat and imposter syndrome (that is when you start to believe you don’t really belong where God put you and you surrender to the negative messages others define you by) Yep its a form of self sacrifice to high places as I shared in that second post. In my submission to all the gas lighting I forgot all the things God has allowed me to accomplish. It reminded me of the point – His point, my purpose and that I can NOT waist anymore time wishing he would rescue me from the mission he sent me to fulfill. So Jeramiah of me to forget all that he has already done in me. So a fresh outlook that my walk has not been aimless, just in a holding pattern. I’m not less I am more. I thank him that he answers prayer however abstractly but when he wants you to see something he has the means to blind your eyes in order for you to see the vision. I have a ton of work to do before he lets me out of this wine press holding pattern in the wilderness but man it feels good to have fresh outlook in where I am until then. But for, now x marks the spot and I’ve got some surveying to do.

Scholar with Purpose

21 Day Fast: Day 5 Give thanks in all things

Tis day 5 of the twenty one day fast and todays tag of thanks for provision. I am late with my post and I only have 10 min to get it on the wall so I’ll make this quick. I have been through it and around it, over it and back down below it in my struggle to keep it pushin. I have given up all that I had worked for to begin a new walk because I thought I was called to it. But as I stated in my last post, the steps he ordered were not on a wide well trodden path. But I also asked Him for autonomy. OHHHHH did I NOT know that my definition of autonomy and His definition of autonomy were VASTLY different. Saints. So this has been a season of rejection, opposition, push back and denial. YET. He has sustained me and provided for me in the midst of it all. I am beyond the time I expected in my educational journey and I do not see the finish line. Yet, he has come through in every way. He has not let any opposition defeat me. He has given me a path through, around, over and under and nothing has stopped me yet. So today I and thankful for Gods provision. Its more than money, its perserverance, its diligence, its strength.

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Scholar with Purpose

21 Day Fast: Day 6 Give thanks in all things

Its Saturday night and once again I am late to my own party (that is my tag the wall with thanks time). To be honest, it was a tough start today and I am having a hard time waxing poetic with my praise. The struggle is real and quite frankly I am once again exhausted with my wandering drift and woke up in a panic. But I got a subtle wink from God today. So today I am grateful for the God winks he gives me just when I need to feel his presence. I have been praying for concrete markers from God so I could have some indication to where exactly I am in this wilderness, the winepress thing is wearing on me. I mean its one thing to feel like your at the end of your line its a whole nother thing to see no end in sight (well except that cliff looming ahead of me). I woke up today feeling like the three lepers, I can’t go back – I’ve been banished and they’ll kill me, I can’t stay here – the brook is drying up and I’ll die (O.K so I’m mixing my scriptures just roll wit me), so I can only go forward into enemy territory and hope they have mercy on me, but enemy territory is that “CLIFF”! Instead of a camp, it’s a drop off into nothingness! Today honestly woke up in a paniced anxiety attack – so I got on my computer and sifted through old sermons, I needed to – not read- but hear the words of God. And LO I found “When the ravens come”. Now I posted a few times how God has and is sustaining me in this here winepress I’m in and I used the example of the ravens. But the scenario that Pastor used that stuck out was “know where” I may feel like I am nowhere in no mans land, but as he put it I’m “spelling it wrong” its “know” where, God knows where I am. Now I “know” that in theory and intellectually cause I “know” the word of God and I “know” that God is God, Eheye – Asher – Eheye, and that God is able, that has not been my issue. My issue is not nor ever has it been “can” He, its been “will” he for “me”. And even more so what? and when? So that sermon blessed me by putting me in remembrance again, both part one and part two. So today I am thankful for my God winks. Pastor said He is hiding me which is exactly what I mentioned in my own post! How fickle and forgetful our faith can be when we let our emotions rule us! God is not of time, time is of God and he doesn’t waist any of it. He hasn’t brought me this far to leave me. I’m the one who asked for autonomy and that means learning to lean into God and onto God and not my own understanding, or other peoples understanding. So I am grateful for his winks in my wait (UHG…the wait!). I have to grow on this meat from the ravens I have to trust his timing, I have to trust every step I take in his name. But oh how wonderful it is when he winks to let me know – “I put you here, your all right, just roll wit me, I AM time”.

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21 Day Fast: Day 7 Give thanks in all things

Today I give thanks for premonition, revelation and insight. I received some news today that has taken away my breath, my words and my confidence. I am so bewildered right now that I don’t know what to pray. Just at a lost. How do you pray out of what God has shown you confirmation for. So in this instance, when I can’t see any good in this I have to just trust “all things come together”. I must do this Saints, even when I do NOT see how in anyway this could work out for my Good. I see maybe surviving it, but advancement from it? Nope can’t see the purpose in it. Yet it’s sure clear that the enemy got it’s way. “But God” said “all things”. So in this instance there is no praying it away, He showed it to me long ago. This is one of those “ah ha” moments, a remembrance when I say “OOOHHHH that’s what that was…. What? Wait – a – minute… REALLY God? you PLANNED this?” So no intersession here. “All things”. The only thing I can do is imagine my countenance if I hadn’t been prepared for it. I mean I thought it was looming, but I wasn’t really ready for it to be this. At this time. In this way. In the presence of and at the hands of these people. This is for most in the natural game over. “But God” showed me that I land on my feet and He makes another way albeit out of sight and out of mind of “those people”. If I’m really honest, “those people” are but alters in high places and I could never please them and live, nor could they ever validate me, I’m Gods. So premonition turns into revelation of a situation and insight into the posture of my spirit. Give thanks in “all things”, even the ones that bring death to a situation you thought was the life of a new thing. Only to find that the thing was a mirage, smoke and mirrors; merely an alter that needed to be torn down. There is no way out of a high place but to fall from it and God showed me I land on both feet with out a scratch completely whole. So I thank him for premonition, revelation, and insight. I also thank him that I belong to Him and He will never forsake me or leave me. My mother gave me to Him from her womb and my grandmother seconded the motion. So I’ve loved the Lord from the beginning of my memory and am called according to His purpose, what ever that is and how ever He sees fit to get me there. What ever it is it has to be above and beyond anything I can ask, think or imagine. Because He says so.

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21 Day Fast: Day 8 Give thanks in all things

Well today is day 8 of the 21 day fast and 8 being the number of new beginnings I have embarked on a fast within our fast. I am relinquishing all solid foods for the next three days. I am pouring myself into three days of monkish solitude beyond the isolation I am already in. I had already cut television – too broke for cable so I didn’t have to worry about that anyway, so that just left radio and since I thrive on NPR (public radio) and that had to go too. I’m in a no noise at all zone. Total silence in order too really really zone into God. Cause Saint’s, after yesterday I really need a word and today, day 8 marked day one of the three day zero in zone. God has done some remarkable things in three days, so I am using that as my blue print for his response. All that said, I am thankful today for three things. One, the insane isolation I have been crying over that is enabling me to embark on these three days, two another wink from God and three perspective. In the aftermath of yesterdays setback I took a step of faith and made a bold move. After my tearful spiritual meltdown – you know those episodes where you fall into a screaming frenzied fit at God while simultaneously yelling at the enemy to flee? Yeah one of those moments. But you can’t hear God screaming and yelling at the air. So the only thing I knew to do is to take this fast to another level. That means relinquishing myself to a state where all my senses are open, my mind, my body, my spirit to hearing Gods whisper. I need my whole person to just be still, from my souls mind to my digestive system, to my nervous system to my spirit. So I am starving the body in order that the spirit will take the helm and put my soul to sleep that my mind will be to tired and week to argue. When I get weak, I lay down. If I get restless, I complete an unfinished chore or I read a scripture. But I schedule time to pray on a task I have on my list of break from the fear to-do’s. Today I took a bold step of faith to complete one of those tasks and what to my surprise did God show up in the response. Another wink. “Now Faith”. And in that He has opened my mind to the ways in which yesterday’s events are actually a blessing to my situation, perspective. It never dawned on me the plethora of ways God moves an obstacle out of your way. Sometimes it comes by promoting them out of your preview. Their blessing seems like a slap in your face, but I prayed for that blessing. First I prayed for the ability to pray for that person, cause Saints, It was NOT easy to pray for their good and not an old testament David “smite them all lord” prayer. But we are under new testament Grace and not old testament eye for and eye, so I prayed for myself to have a heart to be obedient what Christ commanded. NEVER-THE-LESS! When God actually blessed that person right in the midst of their misdoings, must admit, that hurt. It was suppose to be my “table in the presence of” not the other way around. It hurt hurt hurt a deep humiliating hurt. But as I said, God works “all things together for my good” because I ” love Him” and I “am called according to His purpose” And His ways are [most certainly] not my ways. I am coming around to seeing this persons blessing , this God move from a new perspective and also a check on my heart posture. So each day of these next two days I am going to pray on and complete a task on the list. This first one was an exercise in faith tied to the other persons blessing. We will see what kind of praise report that conceives in the next two days. so each day I will trust God with another step on my list. He is changing my perspective from a haphazard frenzied condition to a steady faith to faith ordered walk. Each step albeit forced, but necessary.

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21 Day Fast: Day 8 Give thanks in all things

Well today is day 8 of the 21 day fast and 8 being the number of new beginnings I have embarked on a fast within our fast. I am relinquishing all solid foods for the next three days. I am pouring myself into three days of monkish solitude beyond the isolation I am already in. I had already cut television – too broke for cable so I didn’t have to worry about that anyway, that just left radio and since I thrive on NPR (public radio) that had to go too. I’m in a no noise at all zone. Total silence in order too really really zone into God. Cause Saint’s, after yesterday I really need a word and today, day 8 marked day one of the three day zero in zone. God has done some remarkable things in three days, so I am using that as my blue print for reprieve. All that said, I am thankful today, my first day of the 3 day fast within a fast zero in zone, for three things. One, the insane isolation I have been crying over that is enabling me to embark on these three days of ‘intentional’ attention without interruption, two another wink from God, a2nd three perspective in my pain. In the aftermath of yesterdays setback I took a step of faith and made a bold move. After my tearful spiritual meltdown – you know those episodes where you fall into a screaming frenzied fit at God while simultaneously yelling at the enemy to flee? Yeah one of those moments. But you can’t hear God screaming and yelling at the air. So the only thing I knew to do is to take this fast to another level. That means relinquishing myself to a state where all my senses are open, my mind, my body, my spirit to hearing Gods whisper. I need my whole person to just be still, from my souls mind to my digestive system, to my nervous system to my spirit. So I am starving the body in order that the spirit will take the helm and put my mind to sleep that my soul will be to tired and week to argue. When I get weak, I lay down. If I get restless, I complete an unfinished chore or I read a scripture. But I schedule time to pray on a task I have on my list of break from the fear to-do’s. Today I took a bold step of faith to complete one of those tasks and what to my surprise did God show up in the response. Another wink. “Now Faith”. And in that He has opened my mind to the ways in which yesterday’s events are actually a blessing to my situation, perspective in my pain. It never dawned on me the plethora of ways God moves an obstacle out of your way. Sometimes it comes by promoting them out of your purview. Their blessing seemed like a slap in my face, but I prayed a blessing over them. Well let me be clear, I first had to pray for the ability to pray for that blessing, cause Saints, It was NOT easy to pray for their good instead of an old testament David “smite them all lord” prayer. But we are under new testament Grace and not old testament eye for and eye, so I prayed for myself to have a heart to be obedient what to Christ commanded. NEVER-THE-LESS! When God actually blessed that person right in the midst of their misdoings, must admit, that hurt. It was suppose to be my “table in the presence of” not the other way around. It hurt hurt hurt a deep humiliating hurt. But as we know, God works “all things together for my good” because I ” love Him” and I “am called according to His purpose”. His ways are [most certainly] not my ways cause that is not how I would have handled that. None the less, I am coming around to seeing this persons blessing, this God move, from a new perspective and also a check on my heart posture. So each day of these next two days I am going to pray on and complete a task on the list. This first one was an exercise in faith tied to the other persons blessing. We will see what kind of praise report that conceives in the next two days. The next two days I will trust God with another step on my list. He is changing my perspective for a steady faith to faith ordered walk. Each step a necessary exercise and preparation for my purpose.

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21 Day Fast: Day 9 Give thanks in all things

Hello Saints, we are in day 9 of our 21 day fast and as I stated in my post yesterday, I am in Day two of my 3 day zero in zone fast within the fast. No solid foods for three days until I hear from God. Though I had planned a reprieve of bone broth, thus far I have managed to stay the course on only water and weak tea. With that, today I am thankful for endurance. Not only endurance on this intentional zero in fast within the intentional fast, but in these two days I have realized just how much God has given me the strength to endure. Endurance leads to perseverance and that leads to the finish line. As I stated in my day 2 post God has breathed His ruach into me therefore I will finish this race because His word does not return unto Him void. I will complete what God has breathed and spoken into me because God cannot lie. Therefore, it can’t go any other way. In the silence, today was a good day of clarity. I am being reminded of things He has already shown me that I are now making sense to me. Man, if God would just speak plainly it would be so much quicker, but He loves His parables and similes and poetic abstractions. As such, there is no way I could even possibly lean onto my own understanding on what he is taking me through; I’d have a perpetual migraine and a nose bleed trying to make sense of it all in the natural. I simply have to wait on his revelation and insight. Lo and behold, through it all He has kept me, grown me, and fostered endurance in me. Like I sang before “I’m still here, I’m still here – I made it through – so can you”. New verse – “been through the fire” Sing wit me Saints, “been through the flame – I’m still here. I’ve been kept by His love”. To persevere is one thing, that’s pure survival, that’s to come out of it at the end, but endurance ya’ll, endurance is the middle. Endurance is Daniel in the lion’s Den not quite knowing what the bleep was going to happen before the Angel got there. Endurance is Esther at the Dinner with Darius across the table from Haman and not breaking her cover. Keeping her cool through the whole plan trusting that God had the plan for the parts she couldn’t control. Endurance is Paul and Silas in the prison singing hymns before the Angel showed up. Endurance is David biding his time in the wilderness being chased by a mad man who for some insane reason thought he could get around God. But David endured the running, the insults from people he covered, like Nabal, and his own mighty men who could turn on him on a dime. Not succumbing to his circumstances but instead developing leadership skills cause he always managed to have folk who would follow him over a cliff. Endurance is Christ from Friday till Saturday refusing to die until his appointed time. So, while this portion of my season has not been pleasing, its been full of spiteful, humiliating, rejection; being thrown under busses, being used for other people’s advancement and then kicked to the curb and pushed out into the wilderness. But at that river Cherith that pastor talked about, God has sent me ravens and put me through a season of learned endurance. Although I have no idea exactly what this training is for, and though I had been in the winepress for a time, I have been drawn to the river. And instead of anticipating its drying up, I am tearing down alters in high places in my heart that I have allowed myself to be sacrifices to. God is calling me back to who He told me I am in Him since I was a child. My identity in Him is being replenished and restored. So I praise Him for endurance and for whatever the next season of lessons will bring. I may not be ready, but I am prepared.  

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